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2007-01-16T20:05:00.000+08:00

i think my blog is boring.
i think blogging is boring.
i think almost everything is boring!
okay, no. i dont.

okay people, i have plans!
great plans for the future.
i shall get more sleep.
pay harder attention in class.
im gonna keep my myself constantly busy and occupied.
im gonna do so damn fugging well for my Os that it's gonna make all your heads spin!
yay! haha.

well, the main part is to keep myself really busy.
at least for now.

today tiger called me and told me that he misses me.
okay, so he was lying but it felt really good to be missed.
or to be told that im missed by someone that im so fond of. (:
i miss being missed. ):
i've gotten so accustomed to so many things in the last fifteen months that i cant even imagine how i had lived, spending 15 years all by myself.

which brings me to the ending of my entry.
and the beginning of my thank you speech. xD

to my lovelies, i love you all so so much
without you all i'd be all sad and emo.
which reminds me, at least i have friends!
(unlike some people. squidsquid)

big smoochies to diyanah, iza, yunhao, sherry and farah
who have hated and bitched as whole heartedly as me.
of course there's my bestie, jacq who though quiet,
has always been my support in someway or another.
and then there's ling, who was always there with a listening ear.
as well as shella.
to denver, who has supplied me with great advice and a listening ear.
without you i'd probaly be unsensible and running around naked somewhere.

you guys have been the ones who have constantly made me feel better with your sherryness and yunhaoness
for that i love you all so so much and i cant thank you all enough.

okay, that sounded like a really long speech.
haha.

2007-01-13T13:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday, we intended to watch a movie
but the tix sold out so fast!
so we went shopping instead. whee. (:
actually, i think i've shopped enough.
i have more then enough skirts.
thats for sure.

went with ling to collect her pay.
ahsu came down.
dots dots dots.
so paiseh la. --''

had drama training on thurs.
we got assigned characters.
i really didnt expect to get the role.
its so unlike me.
i mean, a twelve year old girl? haha.
i really hope that i'll do well.
cant wait to see how the script will turn out.
xD

i cant explain myself at all.
and all that wants
and all that needs
all i dont want to need at all.

a falling star
least i fall alone.
i cant explain what you cant explain
i found things that i didnt know
i look at you with such disdain.

the walls start breathing
my minds unweaving
maybe its best you leave me alone.
the weight was lifted
on that evening
i gave the final blow.

2007-01-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

i was doing so well!
so so well.
i was so proud of myself and my determination.
and you ruined it.

having ms thng as my form teacher is a dump.
pfffft.
at least my seat is pretty good. (:

went shopping with priscilla and sherry.
had a lot of fun and we laughed til i almost died.

and through it all
he offered me protection
alot of love and affection
whether im right or wrong.

2007-01-01T19:34:00.000+08:00

oh.my.god.
everything's in a mess.
my life's in a mess.
ohmygodohmygodohmygod.
how did i get into such a mess?

it'll get better.
right?

2006-12-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

xmas eve:
had and ice cream buffet at haagen dazs
courtesy of our dear melvin.
after that,
the whole group of us went over to ling's playground and played games and opened presents.
stayed until pretty late.

xmas day:
went to visit my grandma and aunt in bedok.
the same as every year.

boxing day:
had work.
got my mind off him for hours.
felt so happy and great.
had supper with tiger and ling then we took a slow walk home.

today:
met iza, xinni and jacq in heeren.
bought a pair of converse shoes.
i think they're pretty cool.
all of us except jacq bought a pair of shoes.
bought a skirt and a pair of jeans too.
he got me all pissed and annoyed.
i cant wait to get over him.

i've never loved this much.
i've never regretted this much.
i've never cried so much.
i've never wanted and yearned this much.
i've never hurt this much.

i can see you falling in love with her even if you try to hide it from me.
the anger and hurt is killing me.
the past seems so unreal, like it never happened.
pictures and thoughts of you bring tears to my eyes.
i just miss you so much.
i hate feeling so miserable and pathetic.
moving on seems like such an easy thing for you to do.
those fifteen months have just faded into the past havent they?
i have never felt so alone before.
"how could you move on so fast?"
"how could you fall out of love so fast?"
"how could you like someone else so fast?"
those Qs keep banging around in my head.
and the worst Q of all,
"how am i gonna face you in school?"

i thought maybe, just maybe we might still have a chance.
that when school repens and we see each other you might realise that this was all a big mistake.
but now, i just want to kick myself hard for even having that slightest bit of hope cos your closeness to her just makes that impossible.

it's my fault.
i made the biggest mistake.
but you have to understand that i wouldnt have undone those two weeks cos that's when i realised how important you were to me.
how much i love you and needed you.

sigh.
its my fault.

2006-12-24T16:55:00.000+08:00

hannah loves you all! (:

i've been MIA for so long.
i couldnt even be bothered to visit my own blog and yet you all still visit.
lovess.

this whole month has been sooo eventful.
there's been like major changes.
i'm going up to sec 5.
my results were frigging good, by my standard.
the worse is
i lost the one i love;
the one i spent fifteen unforgettable months with.
but the best is
i've made a whole bunch of new friends.
they best part is most of my close friends are working with me too!

this month has been a roller coaster ride of emotions for me.
i was sad and depressed for awhile den so so happy the next day.
i really wish the holidays would last longer.

yesterday ahgong brought me, ling and xinni to swensen.
he's really the greatest, this ahgong of mine. :D

been shopping for xmas presents like mad recently.
bought like 200bucks worth of xmas present.
i'll be going out soon so maybe, just maybe i'll update later.

merry eve of xmas! (:

i still miss you.

2006-11-24T23:42:00.001+08:00

i wanna go shopping again. soon.

i've been at my class chalet for the past few days.
it was pretty fun.
(except for the fact that the guys were playing PS 3/4 of the time)

on the first night we had our bbq.
headed to escape an hour before noon and played played played til early evening.
ordered pizzas for dinner
and alson and apek cooked some left over food for us.
and today, we checked out.

visited the doctor with jacq cos i had the flu and she had a bad sore troat.
we both didnt want to go to work feeling like shit tomorrow.

i kind of miss work.
just sitting around, lazinng at home just seems so boring.
i hope i dont feel this way when the hols are over.
oh, but i think i really will miss work.
haha.

and guess what?
i was getting my library books from on top of my cupboard when i dropped a bottle of dark red nail polish.
wah, the floor all have. including my left foot.
i faster went to the toilet to wash my foot leaving a rrail of nail polish and dirtying the toilet.
had to scrub the floors with tinner. --''
then some more, i had to meet jacq to see the doctor,
so chiong!
no time so i left my house with my foot badly stained.
looked like a birth mark lar. lols.
came home and used nail polish to clean it off.

oh, and i missed half of charmed cos i didnt hear my alarm.
so darn tired.
sigh.

2006-11-19T03:15:00.000+08:00

two more days to the chalet.
what am i going to do?

2006-11-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

the feeling of constantly having moolah in my wallet is grrreeaaat!
whenever i see a nice blouse or skirt, i can just buy it.
i could never do that two weeks ago.

nadiah;
i can help you do your maths!
hahaha.
i've been tempted to study for the past few day.
its been ages since i touched a textbook. sigh.
but i dont want to waste my time revising for next year when i dont even know if i'll pass.
oh, and by the way,
how come you never tag my board you meanie. :(

so anyway,
yesterday was a horrible horrible day i tell you.
i was paired with this idiotic idiotic toot head.
i hate him and i think he hates me too
cos he complained to suresh(he's a captain) about saying he doesnt want to work with me for a few times.
like, i dont want to work you eaither you shithead!
so suresh made me fold napkins. --''
i was so friggin mad!!

anyway, suresh said he'll scold that idiot today
and he better!
too bad i wasnt there to listen to the scolding. siiigh.
but jacq and colleen will listen to every single word and tell me about it later.
mehehehe.

i'm off the watch charmed now.
bye.

2006-11-16T03:15:00.000+08:00

just went rollerblading with jacob dearest just now.
rollerbladed all the way to bukit merah mac.
we shared a mcnuggets meal and rollerbladed back
but on the way back, my foot was hurting like mad cos the stupid material was rubbing against my poor foot.
my just recovered minced foot, mind you.

so i sat down, smack in the middle of the walk way to nurse my poor poor foot.
and as i got off the floor after 5 minutes,
we saw a pack if dogs.
actually only four lar.
but still, so scary leh!
wild dogs!!
*shivers*

lucky i was nursing my foot or else we would have sure bumped into them
and who knows, we may have caught some disease like rabbies or something.
ha ha. --''

oh well, im off to scrub these pits of mine
so toodles.

2006-11-15T19:14:00.000+08:00

so i had work yeesterday.
worked OT til two.
my feet were minched meat by the time i got home
but i got to learn how to use this huge vacuum thing.
it was really cool .

had lunch ith syed today.

class chalet is next week.

2006-11-11T12:06:00.000+08:00

i really wasnt suppose to wake up until one.
but my phone had to drop. sigh.

i had work yesterday.
and as usual, by the end of the day,
my feet were sore and i was pooped.
but it was fun working with all my friends.
denver, jumana, colleen, huiling, jacq, xinni and cheng pin (sp?).
even ling's cousin, min hong.
it was funny when christine gelled up the boar's hair.
she was like, "see, so neat right?"
then denver was like, "mmm."
with the raised eyebrows and a nod or two.
sarcasm.

i just heard thunder.
grrr.
i dont like it when it rains and i have to work or go out.
why cant it rain when im sleeping?
or when im at home?
or why cant it just be cool, like cameron highlands?
or just be windy?
noooooo. it cant.
cos the weather is just mean and selfish!

i have work again today.
this colour reminds me of fruit punch! (:

2006-11-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

today i travelled over many seas, deserts and islands.
over mountains, cows and sheeps.
just to get to marriott.
and guess what, i didnt have to work.
grrrr.
yup, my name wasnt there.
well, at least ling's name wasnt there too.
meheehee.

so, we went to far east to window shop and eat.
we ate tarts and pies and dranks teas and orange juices.

and here i sit all alone on a thursday night.
wishing i was working or at the movies.

2006-11-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

ZAAAAAAANNNN! zanny zanny zannneeeeeeeeey.
if you're constantly reading my blog as you said you do,
tag my board with the link of your live journal. thks. (:

okay,
so today, i went with barah to vivo cityyy.
she was job hunting.
and we made a couple hundered of stops at zara, topshop, sasa.

actually, i was suppose to catch a movie with my darling, syed.
but then, he had to work over time.
oh, well.

tomorrow i have work.
so yup.

mmooooooo!

2006-11-03T13:36:00.000+08:00

spent my monday, tuesday and wednesday at joell's chalet.
had loads of fun.
cycled around, listened to alson making noise in the night
and gengfai's lame jokes.
cant wait for the class chalet.
i really hope it'll be a success.

had work on wednesday evening.
worked until one.
wah, they all were happily playing their indian music on the speakers.
diao lar.

i had work yesterday also.
that nadiah doesnt want to come back.
so weak!

today im freeeeeeee.

"eh, my chest very itchy leh. i think got hair growing!"
HAHAHAHAHA.

2006-10-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

guess who i saw today.
come on, GUESS.
well, it was ..
drum roll
JADEEEEEE!
she walked down the runway looking oh-so-pretty and cool.
she was modelling for some wedding company.

i broke a candle holder.

2006-10-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
my 3rd day at marriott.
first, we were sent to the backroom to fold napkins.
then i had to serve tables.
it was so nerve-recking.
i honestly thought serving people the food would be a breeze.
boy, was i wrong!
i was so nervous that i was shaking.
thank god the guys in my table were really understanding and patient.
one of them even helped me serve the food and push the rotateble table.
if he wasnt there i might have died.
AND i got my first pay.
YAY!
it was so cool putting in money into my posb card for the very first time!

today,
me, colleen, ling, jacq, xinni and nadiah went to far east plaza.
then we went to marriot cos the 5 of them wanted to interview for the waitress position.
and they all got it. haha.
so we'll all be working on the same day cos the nice lady says that they can learn from me and ling. : D

im working tomorrow.
i hope tomorrow wont be as nerve-wrecking as yesterday.

(:

2006-10-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

today,
i watched the incredibles during dnt aaaannnd
i learnt the wonders of the eyeball!

headed to tiong to make my posb card.

then,
me, xinni, jacq, nadiah and clara went to great world city.
we walked and walked.

we left at 6.30 and it was raining. -_-''
so, we walked in the rain to the bus stop.
me, nadiah and clara ended up boogey-boogeying
and singing in the rain.
we sang about fishes, potatoes and god knows what else.

i've been having so much fun this week!
but its been ages since i've gone out with syed. ):

i cant wait to go to work tomorrow!!

oh btw, i cooked noodles for dinner.
no, not maggi mee.
NOODLES lar.
it was pretty good, my noodles.

i've painted my nails pretty pink.
now now boar, dont be jealous.
i know my nails and teeth have always been prettier then yours.
hahaha.
joking lar you minah!

this has been a pretty long entry.
so blah, bye! (:

2006-10-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

today,
me, jacq and potato went to ikea.
so many interesting things there!
everytime i go to ikea, i get so excited at the thought of getting my own home and decorating it with furniture and other home accessories from ikea.
before we left,
we managed to wave madly at mao mao.
he looked so handsome in his uniform. : D

then,
i met boar to have dinner.
we went to the arcade after that.
we asked the guy to put $10 in but instead, he put in $30.
we were so stunned.
we faster walked away and started giggling.
so funny!
we kept playing and playing til there was only 20cents left in the card.

today was really fun.
i laughed alot and it was really nice spending time with people i love.

2006-10-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

urgh!
you backstabbing hypocrite!
sometimes i dont understand how i can be friends with you.
cant you be more discreet?
whoops! i forgot,
those arent one of your strong points.
i may not be one to preach but, urgh!

i hope im not like you.
and if i am then
God, help me.

ANYVAY! ,
i went to the library with jacq today.
i managed to leave school earlier. muahaha.
i dont really have much to write about actually.
i cant wait to go to work!

2006-10-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

today i went blading with the boar.
then, we had dinner. yum.
laughed like mad went he banged into this guy butt first.
to end the evening, we wasted lotsa moolah in the arcade.

literate and stylish.
kissable and quiet.
well, that's what girl's dreams are made of.
and thats all you need to know.
you have it or you dont.
dont hold your breath cos you'll only make things worse.
-TBS (:

2006-10-21T01:59:00.001+08:00

i burnt a line on my arm with an iron today.
accidently.

had work again.
i dont know why, but i really work forward to going to work.

i long for what i cant have.

oh, so far away.

happy 14mth anni syed. (:

2006-10-21T01:59:00.000+08:00

i burnt a line on my arm with an iron today.
accidently.

had work again.
i dont know why, but i really work forward to going to work.

oh, i long for what i cant have.

happy 14mth anni syed. (:

2006-10-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

i like taking back sunday. (:

yesterday was my first day at work. the marriot hotel.
it was pretty fun.
served wine, beer, chinese tea.
cant wait for the second day.
but my poor heels and toes were aching by the end of the five hours.
we were standing non-stop from the moment we started.
we had to practise walking around the ballroom with a tray and four cups of water.
its was heavy and ling was dying! haha.
but we managed to sneak off a few times just for a few minutes to take our own little breaks.

i miss colleen.
i wish she was working with us.
it would be so much more fun.

i really hope that this job is as nice as it seems.

hey lush have fun.

2006-10-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

today, i spent five hours cleaning my whole house.

i also searched for a new blogskin.
so TADA! pretty??

i just ate a pizza tad seemed more like a sandwich.

and i really think my blog is pretty.
i know you do too. (:

2006-09-13T08:09:00.000+08:00

here i am sitting in IT rm 2 during my dnt period.
instead of studying, i'm blogging just for the hell of it.
probably no one will read this til next week or something cos i hardly update.

bye. 8)

2006-08-30T20:37:00.000+08:00

here's my update nadiah. (:

2006-08-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

i have totally screwed up my prelims lar.
i dont wanna screw up my Ns too but i cant seem to find that motivation that i need.
how oh how?

5 things in wish for right now?
-to self motivate myself to study.
-to watch a gazillion and one movies.
-to have hairless legs xD
-to go to the library. i havent read a book in ages. im deprived!
-to have pan's brain. muahaha.

today we had to do this really bhb form thingy.
we had to write about our strenghts.
i mean who's thick-skinned enough to write
'oh, i have great leadership qualities!',
'i am very responsible!' ?
blah blah.
so embaressing lar!

snow patrol is really good.
and my oxygen deprived eyes are screaming at me to remove my lenses but im too lazy leh.

2006-08-21T18:33:00.000+08:00

today i ate spicy ban mian.

syed:
happy one year anni.
omg! one year larrrrrrr.
haha, loves.
thanks for being by my side and loving me.
thanks for putting up with my nonsense and making me laugh.
thanks for giving me a year filled with hugs and kisses.
for being the sweet and adorable darling that you are. xD

i had thanked everyone who made my year in eldds such a memoriable one but i forgot to thank amrit.
amrit who has been my pal for the past 3 and a half years.
who has been there for me when i needed to bitch and moan.
who is so concern about me and my studies.
who tolerates my nonsense.
thanks amrit! (:

to jacq, iza(who i dont have a piccie with), nadiah and xinni.
who have also made wonderful memories with me for the last 3 and a half years.
who have made me smile.
we've seen each other grow so much!
we've seen each other have our first boyfriends/girlfriends
-no, im not talking abt you, iza and nadiah. xP
we've been there for each other and wiped those tears from each others eyes.
we've been through so much, the 5 of us.
i love you all so much.
rmbr the time when we wanted to open a shop?
me doing nails?
iza doing make up?
and nadiah washing the feet of our costumers??
HAHAHAHAHA!

and the to rest of my friends who i've grown to love,
i love you all also lar!

2006-08-20T21:35:00.001+08:00

today, colleen, me and jacq vent to orchard!!!
ve vent shopping yah?
then i met denver.
ve had dinner ov soggy ban mian at great verl ceetee.
he bought vor me ize-cream and a vatermelon.
yes yes. *shakes head from zide to zide*

anyzanyway!
syed is almost back in spore.
yayness.

i have school tomorrow lar and i dont like it!
aaargghhh!!

i am feeling laaaaammmmeeeee.
BOOOO YOOOOOUUUU.

erh, me and farah are making plans to go catch a movie with our beloved naomieeee.
and zen, ve also vanna meet ridhwan and dewi!
eeeeks! ridhwan and farah are asking me to fast with them lar.
maybe i shld. shed those fats!
haha.
anyone wanna join me.
u see, nadiah will look so slim after the fasting month. muahahaha!
joking lar nadiah. (x

yes yes *nods head*

bye!

2006-08-19T21:51:00.000+08:00

i miss syed.
he's in m'sia lar.

if i lay here,
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?
forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden thats bursting into life.

snow patrol's whole album is pretty good.
especially chasing cars.
that song is awesome!
i watched the grey's anatomy version of the video and it made me feel so sad.
if you do watch grey's anatomy, then you should watch that video. (:

2006-08-18T12:46:00.000+08:00

oh, those were the days of cam-whoring.
those unforgettable days or drrrama.
here's me sharing with you one of the most glorious and heartfelt moment in my life.

*
looking back and remember.

we can dance. oh yes, we can.

can you see bobby in timmy's nose??

OMG! farah is so not gonna eat those roses right? riiiggghht?!

my sec 2 bitches. i'll always love you three (:

qianwei and mr octoPUS

transvetites from geylang. HA HA.

look at those foreheads

those sexy legs

a hybrid of rahimah and mathilda. haha.

smile for the camera you whores!

timmy-shit and me

aaaaahh! *hyperventilates*

the sec 4 girls

the after look

presenting the faty acid beast

boar, mahpig and ze concubineeee

my dearest boarbitch

i miss everyonnnnneeeeee!
i missed the damn cast party cos i was sick!
*sobs*
this year has been a surprising and vonderful year.
i've made such great friends!
everytime i look at these pictures, i feel so sad that its all over.
so fast.

and HAPPY BIRTYHDAY DENVER!
i'm so sorry i cant spend the day with you.
but thks for understanding. lovess. (:

thks to everyone for their well wishes and get well messages and tags.
i feel so loved and missed. haha.

prelims have been the pits.

i only had fun with the bio paper lar.

going to spize later and im gonna camwhoreee!

2006-08-06T02:45:00.000+08:00

drama nite is over.
this cast will cease to exist from today.
i am so sad and happy.
oxymoron.
like sweet and sour pork.
haha. ok, lame.

the whole show was great!
i felt so happy when i was on stage.
it felt great to bask in the glory of our hardwork
and to receive such great praise from everyone.

thks a gazillion and more times for all your support.
i truly felt like a star ytd.
i saw all of you waving wildly at me.
i saw all my handsome friends wearing shirts
and all my pretty darlings wearing mini skirts
and flaunting their skinny legs.
oooouh!

thks for the flowers and the cake(xinni).
thks to the two people who came both nights though i doubt that it was just to see me (: .
thks to all the seniors who came back,
especially benver who did the best foundation ever.
for capturing these precious momonts on his digicam.
for being a bitch and entertaining us all.
to joel kwa and elina who has given me such useful and wonderful tips.
for encouraging me.
thks to all the sec 2s who made this year unforgettable for me.
im glad i got to know all the sec 4s better this year.

a night to remember,
i will truly miss it.
drama nite 2006.

2006-08-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday and today has been so tiring.
two full runs with one full dress rehersals.
everything is so pretty!
just wait and see.

thank you all so so much for all your support.
(except for yunz. hee. jkin lar.)
i really really appreciate it.
thanks for buying those drama nite tickets.
i love you all. (:
and i hope you will all enjoy the performance.

2006-07-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

here are a two more pics just to entertain you all.

face off. thank god i get to slap her in the show. muahaha!

princess leia! lmao

these last few rehersals have been fun.
heck, all the rehersals have been fun in their own twisted way.

went to queensway with jacq today to get my contact lenses.
before that, i went and cut my fringe and its so friggin short!
*whines*
i'm gonna keep it up til it reaches my eyebrow- at least.

janice, i guess i owe u an apology.
it was wrong of me to blame your relationship problems solely on you.
it was also not my place to judge your relationship.
after reading several of your post,
i've realised that it's not only you who's to blame
though it may have seemed that way a gazillion times cos you are the louder one in the relationship
whereas he did all those things silently.
get what i mean?
so, i hope you accept me apology. (:

2006-07-29T01:24:00.000+08:00

and i thought my life was dramatic.
everyone has trucks loads of problems.
i just dont know what to say.
so i wont say anything.

some people can be damn hypocritical.
ok, i am at times too.
but some people say things behind peoples backs
and to their face, they act as if they're best friends.
no kidding!

one moment someone is telling me that he/she
hates this certain person.
and the next, they're comforting or talking to that person.
like, what the hell?
do you say things behind my back and act as if you like me in front of me?

oh, just forget it.
the wonders of a human brain.

had rehersals today.
was so so fun lar.
with our inch deep make-up
and pretty costumes.

qianslut's scaring me!

oohlala! kisses!

and a big thank you to the vonderful denverboar for the piccies! (:

im so darn tired. nites y'all!

2006-07-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

i've changed my skin again!
oh, i love this one the best.
LOVESSS!
and a bunch of thanks to the boar for choosing and loving this skin.(:

went to bugis street with jacq yesterday to buy shoes.
and when i tried on the shoes in GW, jacq realised that both sides were left!
aaaargggh!!!
soooo, i went back there with my brother to change those oh-so-lovely shoes of mine.

had my malay orals today.
im gonna fail. no doubt.
this isnt me just trying to act stupid when i secretly know that im gonna pass.
cos im not going to.
it was so damn difficult! *sigh*

oh, and make sure you all come for drama night hor!

(oh enough. im too lazy to argue with the likes of you. you just have no idea do you?)

2006-07-23T03:24:00.000+08:00

went to cine with jacq to buy my shoes.
but i couldnt find the one that i wanted so we'll be going to the outlet in bugis tomorrow.
next, we went to taka and i we bought these cute little bottles of lipgloss.
3 per pack -from watsons.

came back around 10 plus.
syed found me a blogskin so you all better love it!
change mine pretty fast.
but syed's took ages.
just finished redoing the skin.
go check it out.

and be sure to tag the new cbox that i got him hor.

i'm so darn tired.
so good night people.
i hope you're having sweet dreams. (:

2006-07-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

what a coward you are for not truly admitting your mistakes.
for blaming them on a person who is trying his best to maintain your relationship almost single handedly.
you who has been rude to concern and well meaning friends.
do you think we really want to repeat ourselves?
do you think you are in the right? honestly?
an outsider?!
fine, do whatever you want.
what an insult to you girlfriends when the first one you consult are those of the opposite sex or those who you have just grown close to.
what an insult.
yes, you are in the wrong.
i may not be one to say, but you are an ignorant and selfish person.
i am so mad at you and i cant stand you any longer.
yes, delete my tag when you feel that its inappropriate.
oh, but please, stop living in denial.

ps, 1.do not bother to tag.
2. you are no longer invited to the movies with us this tues.
3.stop flirting with my boyfriend!
4.i am not the only one who is insulted by your stupidity.

jacob and i have the same skin.
he liked my skin so i decided to share it with him.
anyway, i'm gonna change my skin as soon as i am no longer lazy.

i love you people. (:

2006-07-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is my 11mth anni!
ouh! LOVESS!
hehee.

had lunch with clara, nadiah, jacq, xinni, janice, colleen and yunz.
we were like laughing our asses of cos we were all just crapping.

had dinner with denver and shella.

and like damn!
i forgot to bring home my frigging chemistry notes.
and i just might fail my chem test.

i was so sleepy today and we had to watch these two stupid videos
about racial harmony and another video about singapore.
i was like sleeping through half of it.
so boring lar!

okay. bye.

2006-07-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

personally,
i think jonathan leong was the best today.
i love his voice.
love love love.
and he's really adorable lar!

had eldds. again.
wasnt so bad lar.

i still havent started revising.
like, er. hello?
my prelims are pretty near.
the only thing i've been doing for N levels so far
is my dnt.

had dinner (sort of) with benverboar, blina and barah.

got another deck of poker cards confiscated today.
by mr chua.
lucky no grow me or demerit points.
but still, its like
what the...
i tell you, that taitee (sp?) game is addictive.

love and peace and a gazillion kisses!

ps. farah, i know u loved rahimah rahim's performance today u blady minah! (:

2006-07-18T21:05:00.000+08:00

a mountain out of a tiny hole. -nadiah's saying.
haha!

helped yunhao to create a blog.

went to simlim again.
and after like an hour of searching, i finally found the wheels that lum they all needed for dnt.

bye. (:

2006-07-16T23:09:00.000+08:00

today i rode behind my dad on his motorbike.
it was way cool!

did loads of housework today and yesterday.

i might wanna become a nurse when i grow up.
i think its a real cool profession.

i should get some sleep.

2006-07-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

had bio lessons at the tiong bahru park pond today.
it was pretty fun sucking insects into this test tube thingy.

we had ROD today.
it was pretty great.
i didnt cry or anything cos it is abit premature to cry when i'll still be sitting next to qianslut, patty-sha and my darling zanny poop til the end of the school year.

after the ROD,
me, tim, yuenfong and xue er went to the tiong bahru park pond.

there were these really cute duck looking birds at the pond.
and there were these adorable black furry baby duck looking creatures too!
so the four of us were trying to scare them with these little bomb packs that we had.
it was like damn difficults lar
cos everytime tim went over with the bomb, they ran in the opposite direction.
i swear they knew what we were up to!
we ended up heading home after being chased away by some uncles cos we had chased those duckies around.

desperate to us the bomb, xue er suggested that we stop a taxi and ask the driver a question then plant the bomb in the taxi to scare the shit out of him.
but their 3 attempts failed.
(i was hiding while they did that. haha.)

so i came up with a brilliant idea.
we went to this block looking for a house too throw the bomb into.
but all the houses had people in the hall.
so we decided to plant it in front of the lift.
so when the lift open, the thing will explode, scaring the person inside.
but it failed cos the idiot in the lift stopped a floor above first.
but the pop sound was damn loud.
it was pretty fun.

that was my sweaty and interesting day. (:

OH! and i love zan! hee.

2006-07-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

for the next 3 weeks,
i'll be having el from monday to saturday.
the agony!
so you all better come and support me for drama night.

its pretty late but i dont feel like sleeping yet.
hmmm.

i really dont know what to blog about.
but i've been itching to blog.
so now that i've done it,
im feeling much better. (x

2006-07-10T18:17:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling irritated and snappy.
must be the lack of sleep.
if i've snapped at anyone, then i'm sorry.

boys seem insignificant lately.
ARGH! there's something wrong with me.

i need someone to calm me down.
i need...

2006-07-09T08:38:00.000+08:00

my NEW blog skin!
love it people, LOVE it!!

we've all changed drastically.
i'm still not used to the change.
friends who used to hang out with me hardly even go out with me anymore.
they dont even bother to invite me when they go out.
and its not just me that they're neglecting.

how did i end up with my current group of friends?
i mean i love them and all but i do miss my old friends.
iza, nadiah, xinni.
we're so caught up in our own stuff that we hardly ever go out together anymore.
we dont even hang out together anymore.
we used to be damn close.
you know, the 5 of us.
iza, xinni, jacq, nadiah and me.
damn sad lar.

the constant person who's always been there for me is jacqueline.
i love that woman! (:
she's my pillar of support.
always there with a listening year.
always making me feel better.
even peeling prawns for me.
haha.

today went for a bbq.
what alot of problems the bbq came with.
stayed outside with dehui, hoelum, yunz and joell.
yunz left around 6 then the 4 of us had breakfast at bukit merah mac.
dont plan to sleep yet.
overall, today was kind of fun. xD

2006-07-06T19:57:00.000+08:00

if i didnt have my darling beeeeches
naomi, farah and timo
i tink i'd die of boredom during rehersals.

i miss janice's swimming pool.

i'm scared, N'levels are really near
and yet i'm still pretty relaxed.
where's my friggin' sense of urgency?!

i miss the stupid boar! (:

everything seems to have changed this year.
i've become good friends with people that i hated before.
i've grown closer to people who i'd never expect to grow close to.
and i'm drifting apart from my once close friends.
friends who promised that we'll be friends til we're old and wrinkle.

maybe i'm the one who's changed
not them.
but it's like damn saddening lar.

i miss the good old days.

2006-07-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

these are some pictures taken during the june hols.
enjoy! (:

emoooo.

dont i look seductive compared to
bellah's protruding butt? HAHA.

benverboar and me

the larva cummer trying to tickle me!

ppssssst!

the main cast

paul ONEBOOB. heeee.

cleavage?

qianslut's dolce and gabbana razor.
pretty!!

everyone!
u better start saving 20cents a day
cos u must must must come and support
me on the 4th or 5th august.
-drama night.

hoelum gave me a bottle of green tea today.
what a sweet thing to do!
haha.

see nadiah,
i've put piccies AND updated!

2006-06-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

tuna sushi.
thats the only sushi that i eat.
me and melvin have that in common! (:
i like tom yam soup too.
when i first tasted tom yam soup like 4 years ago,
i thought it funny that a soup was sour.

i like all glittery stuff.
they're just so pretty!
and i love strips and dots.
colourful strips and dots.

i love my cupcake handphone keychain.
(wouldnt have bought it if denver hadnt insisted.)
i love my stripey handphone case.
and i love you. *blushes*

2006-06-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

well, HELLO my darling avid readers!

iza, have you found the link?

met jacq at 7 to shop for a thank-you prezzie for a certain person.
going to sentosa tomorrow after my el.
drats. so tiring lar.

met bellah-pig on the way to tiong.
and she and benver boar were meeting up to go jogging.
yes, JOGGING!
HAHAA!
was it fruitful benver?

to all you lovely people out there,
i just wanna tell you that out beloved nadiah
is a stupid and lazy pig.
haha. but at least she's a cute pig too.
don't be angry lar you. (:

and to syafiq, my dear dear friend.
the meaning for scandal:
an action or event regarded as morally or legally wrong and causing general public outrage.
-outrage, rumour or gossip arising from this.
(the oxford dictionary)

LOVESS! *grins*

2006-06-21T17:38:00.000+08:00

amrit is becoming meaner. he was already mean before. so imagine how he is now.

he rolls his eyes at me. he scolds me. aaaaannndddd he gets mad at me easily.

had el again today. everyday. im having great difficulty waking up lar.

came to school with bimothy and saw xx and farah. so we trooped over to the shop opposite for me to buy chee chong fun?(sp??). while i ate, the 3 childish people played at the playground. and i ended up spilling the horrid black sauce down my blouse. let me tell you that was not the forst time for me to spill things down my now not so white blouse.

benver boar, elina also came back today. elina was a great help.

went for lunch with baomi and barah shit. and now im hungry.

2006-06-20T14:49:00.000+08:00

yipeeeee!

i've got a new skin.
niceeeee??

yesterday, went to marina for a steamboat dinner.
played games in the arcade, pigged out and went to the arcade again.

had eldds again.
at 7.45am. the agony!
im so sleepy now.
slept around 2 yesterday.
and its already the last week of school.

*sigh*

2006-06-18T18:51:00.000+08:00

jacob gets more money then me.
more privilages.
more freedom.
i don't hate him for that.
but sometimes, i hate my dad.

i'm mad.
i've been having this weird feeling the whole day.
i think its mixed emotion.
mostly rebellious anger i guess.

i feel like just sitting somewhere and rotting.
wadever.

2006-06-17T20:01:00.000+08:00

had a boring day today.
went to school for EL at 9.

on monday, armstrong said that we die die cannot be late.
not even for a minute.
and she came late! yup.
claiming she felt dizzy or wadever.
so, we had to stay an extra half an hour.

met syed to study.
and we really did study.
i'm feeling so darn sleepy.
darn darn sleepy.

i'm trying to tink of what to write about.
but...
argh!

have any of you done your holiday hmwk?
i'm almost done. (:
just need to finish my SS.
amazingly, we've only got maths and SS hmwk this hols.
a bunch of yays!

2006-06-16T21:39:00.000+08:00

today, i witnessed a pigeon get run over by a bus.
the feathers flew all the way to the bus stop that i was sitting at.

i went to queenstown with jacq.
met iza and the rest of the trackers to give her ideas for games.
went to queensway.
then qreat world city.

i'm tired.
and i have to wake up early for ELDDS tomorrow.
*sigh*

i am wearing a garfield nightgown.
i am bored.
can someone find me a new blog skin?
please?

2006-06-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

some people are so unco-operative.
like please show some respect for the organiser!
ask anyone who has organised something and you'll know how time consuming and tiring it is to plan something.
its amazing how unco-operative some of my friends can be.
come on lar, stop being a freaking prima donna.
gawd!

so anyway, i've been to lazy to update.
i mean, what's so interesting about my life that you people want to read about right?
but...

i've been having a busy month.
jammed pack with rehersals, i've hardly had time to go out.
which reminds me how much i hate armstrong. *imagines her dying a slow horrible death*

just planning an outing to marina for steamboat is stressful enough.
and i have yet to go to sentosa.
what happened to the first two weeks of the hols??
its flew by so fast!

ok. this isnt helping.
i need a laugh.
still mad about my (supposedly) friends stupid attitude.

and tomorrow, i have to drag my ass over to delta CC to play badminton with benver and timo.
OOOH! lucky me.

2006-06-11T22:07:00.000+08:00

i have nothing to write about.
so bored.

i've hardly even studied for the past two weeks.

there's a fly crawling back and forth along the cushion of the chair next to my house phone.
its been doing that for the past hour!
freaky.

i lead a boring life.
i am a boring person.
you are a boring person too. (:

bye.

2006-06-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

today, timothy introduced me, farah and naomi to bobby.
we were laughing and all of a sudden bobby popped out of nowhere.
and timo being disgusting, picked him up.
me, naomi and farah screamed in horror and disgust.
thank god timo threw bobby away in the end.
but i refused to touch timo after that.
bobby had came out from timo's nose. im serious!
he's mimi's brother.
now u know what he is. haha!

after eldds, had lunch with timo, naomi and farah.
i really love those bitches.
im really enjoying this play.
im really enjoying the company of my fellow actors.
especially those i werent really close to before.

well, a big hello to amrit.
i know he's gonna read my blog soon.
bcos of him, im blogging early today.

syed is comin back today.
yay! im so happy. (:
but dunno what tym.

* standing on the rooftops. everybody scream ur heart out!

2006-06-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

its pretty late now.
nahh, pretty early.
im missing syed. *sobs*
so anw, i've been havin EL for the past couple of days.

today was real lame.
as usual, EL always turns out fun in the end.
timothy, ben, qian wei and i were juz sitting outside the i studio and timothy being timothy decided to throw shoes down.
yes! from the 4th floor all the way to the first floor.
so we threw farah's shoe down.
and timothy went and fetch it.
just like the good lil' doggy he is. :)
den we stood there bitchin about student leaders.

met benver for 'tea'.
feeling damn tired.
god, EL is killing me!

there are flies crawling all over my comp screen.
and i hope u've enjoyed the story of my boring day.

2006-06-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

yay!
im so glad that my computer is fine.
im so glad i can come online anytime i want now.
im so glad!

man, this colour thing is cool!

so anw, i will tell you more tmr.
i will update MORE tmr.

good night!

2005-04-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

we have put iin so muchh effort. so much sweat and tears. so much laughter and joy. so much perseverence and hardwork. so muchh memoriies. and wad did we get? nope, not a COP. a bronze? nahh. silver? hmmm .. nope. gold? come on, u're almost thr. gold WITH HONOURS? yup! u got iit!

GESS ELDDS rawks.

enuff saiid :)

2005-04-21T10:15:00.000+08:00

mr goh sux. full stop. juz ask anyone iin 3d. we all hate him. enuff saiid.

starting 2 feel the pressure iin skl. i actually studied 4 my hist. and tad doesnt happen often. hope i at least come close 2 passing.

im still stuck iin tis mess. sumtyms, i feel lyk its not a mess. sumtyms, i actually enjoy iit. hey! isnt tis wad i always wanted? but now tad im getting iit, i realise tad it sux and i dun wan it. please, please sumone, get mii out of tis mess.

wads the tiing abt guys? they refuse 2 open up. they refuse 2 tell anyone wadds one their minds. they dun even wanna tell those who sincerely care 4 them abt wads happening. iits annoying.

oh, i've made a new freeeen. haha .

mii and iza were sitting in dnt class talkin abt surnames and how iit'd sound wiith our names. and we came 2 tis conclusion:
-iza mahtani (har har)
-jacqueline pereira
-hannah jacobs

haha. total crap larr. but hey, we were bored.

*Amor , no es amor (if this ain't love)
Then what am I feelin', (then what am I feelin')
What am I doin' wrong
Amor, no es amor (if this ain't love)
Is this an illusion (is this an illusion)
That I have in my heart

obsession
(i am so addicted 2 tis songg)

2005-04-20T05:23:00.000+08:00

juz reached home. exams are starting iin 13 days. having a hist test tmr and a chem test on thurs or fri. so annoying. gonna study 4 my hist after im done with tis. i cant beliff im realli gonna study. haha. ok, i mite end up not studying larr. i've done tad b4. i bing back my books intending 2 study budden i end up getting occupied wiith sumting else.

went 2 qeensway 2 cos iza wanted 2 get sumting. den went back 2 sch. sum sec 1s forced iza 2 buy one of those balloon stuff. so iza bought it but she din wan iit so i took it. after walking with her 2 the bus stop, i was walking home and i knew tad iif i continued 2 play with tad balloon tingy, it'd burst. and yes, it did in the end. i was happily twisting iit and den all of a sudden iit burst in my hand causing my shirt, skirt and shoes 2 get wet. but it wasnt tad bad larr.anyway, almost home wadd.

im so sleepy. i juz wanna sleep. bu i nid 2 study study study AND watch CSI later. yup. and 2dae iis jacob's day. the onlii reason y im usin the comp rite now is cos he's not yet back. most lykly playing soccer.

well, im gonna be guai now. bye. :)

2005-04-17T11:06:00.000+08:00

i.am.so.freakin.tiired.

wanna nOe how tiired? well, so tired tadd i have propped my feet next 2 the comp and now im 2 lazy 2 type anytiing. so i am using the online keyboard. haha. ok. now i've stopped using iit. iits 2 troublesome and annoying.

iin the mrning, met shella, farah and tim to go 4 sum 10 min script writing course. we ended up walking iin the opposite diirection. tad is the reason why i dun take geog. haha. ok. wadever. tad was lame. er, yea.

den, went 2 armstrong's hse. met shella and jumana. it was freddy's bdae. and they got him a cake and a t-shirt den managed 2 conviince him 2 wear the t-shirt and he STRIPPED RITE IN FRONT OF US. *swoons* he is SO hot. man oh man. haha. im becoming lyk nOreen and jumana. keke. left wiith amrit and XX. and amrit soooo swit paid 4 the cab faiir. aww.

a few ppl have been telling mii tad the dreadful performance on IFD was great. yea rite. *rolls eyes* but since they said tad, maybe, MAYBE, i would consider not skipping school on the day tad we perform 4 the upper sec. wait a minute. dream on. i'd rather kiss a frog.

im becoming so weak. im becoming so stoopid. im becoming so dumb.

*yeah yeah do you really have everything you want
you could never give something you ain't got
you can't run away from yourself

are u happy now?

2005-04-16T06:29:00.000+08:00

broken promises. *siigh* its not the fiirst.

had el performance 2day. so embarressing. dun dare do iit again.

came 2 school wiith a bad moOd. left school feeling much much better. but now, im back 2 feeling moody. im blaming itt on pms. well, iits not a lie. iits true. casey was the 1st to notiice. my new bf. haha. nahh. so, im kind of sensitive nOw. yea. juz a warning 2 ward off irritating souls.

*We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
So let it be
There's a love that could fall down like rain
Let us see
Let forgiveness wash away the pain

we beliieve.

2005-04-15T08:37:00.000+08:00

wow! wad a day. slept over iin skl ytd niite. met denver 1st den walked 2 skl. slept iin the music rm. and i slept realli well iin fact. did 2 runs b4 sleeping. and jeremiah saiid tad the 2nd one was the best out ofal we've done. anw, woke up at 5 iin the mrning 2dae. bathed and did my haiir and makeup. blah blah. did a run b4 goin 2 chinese high. left skl at 8. reached thr at ard 8.30. we performed at ard 9.30 and we were GREAT! gess eldds so rawks! we all did so well. we did our best and iit was magic. yong liang was great and so was everyone else. anw, congrats 2 the choir, tamil dance, band and malay dance. u guys did great. the dance results 4 eldds will be coming out tmr. hope they did well.

ran the 2.4 after skl at ard 3.30. and i finished iit within 15.37 mins. hehe. im so proud of myself. cos i suck at running. :) went 2 tiong and slacked wiith nadzi, sherry, xinni, priscilla and yun hao. iit was realli nice. so windy. anw, im 2 tired 2 write much.

bye

2005-04-13T12:34:00.000+08:00

uuuhh! new skiin. hehe. bored lar. tired and bored. iits so girl lor tis skiin. nvm. i shall change iit again iif im bored. :) SYF is in 2 days tym. stayin over iin skl tmr. CSI iis starting in abt half an hour. i shld be studyin 4 bio test. hmmmm. syed and fiq are studyin. i dunno abt the rest. i dunno wad 2 wriite abt.

oh, btw. lemme tell u sumtiing. puay leng spilled a driink on her shoe. so she washed iit and driied iit ON the sun. yes, ON the sun. direct quote frm her. keke. puay leng is sumone who manages 2 get mii rolling on the floor with laughter. and mii, nadzii and PL managed 2 put a smiile on the sad xinni's face. cheer up ok gal?

bye ppl.

2005-04-11T13:36:00.000+08:00

el, el, el. my whole world has been revolviing ard eldds these couple of dayys. its horrible. im so draiined by the end of the week. finally managed 2 catch up on my sleep ytd and i also managed 2 finiish readiing a boOk. well, im haviing el 4 the rest of the week until the final day, wiich is thurs. on weds, will be sleeping in skl cos we hve 2 be up realli early iin the mrning. we'll be the 1st or 2nd skl performing. den we'll stay thr and watch other skls perform. so i wun be ard the whole day. yea. cant waiit 4 all tis 2 be over. *siigh*

i have 2 talk 2 him. no, i dunn wanna talk 2 him. y cant i avoiid him til tiings get better? y did i change my miind? y did i back out all of a sudden? y do i have 2 be so stubborn? y do i have 2 be so farkiin weiird?? damn.

went and watchh iza run 2dae. she did pretty well. dear fiq. oh tad poor guy. its sarks bein accused. he din do iit. stoopid *whatshername*. i hate her 2 the core. how can she farkin accuse fiq of doiin such a tiing? she and her stoOpid white heels. yea, we noe u're short so u're tryin 2 look taller with ur heels. well, hello! iits NOT wrkin! i mean, i am not tad tall, but im definitely taller den her even when she's weariing her fugly heels. y am i getting so worked up? cos one of my clostest frenz fone has gotten confiscated and he got accused of doin sumtiing tad he din do. and he iis feeling so farked up and sad and im doin my best 2 cheer him up. and she still can cry. biatch. and guess wad? she's a farkin ELDDS member. sucky or wad?

juz when i thot i was startiing 2 feel happy and tiings were goin realli well, these kind of tiings had 2 enter the picture. i feel so guilty when i tiink abt tad *issue*. iza and nadz have been realli supportiive. i guess the moral of all tis is, nthin ever goes well 4 more den 2 days in hannah's liife. sucky. *siigh*

i need a BIG WARM hug frm sumone riite now. no, i dun need iit frm sumone. i nid iit frm u. i wiish i could relive wad happened tad day. wad day was iit? err, was iit a fri or sat? nvm. u rmbr tad day dun u? do u ever go back 2 tad day and wonder ..... ? i juz want a hug. frm u. as a fren.

questiion: cann u tell mii exactly wads goin on iin ur head?

2005-04-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

iits been ages since i last updated eh? anw, iits been a real tiring week tis whole week. el, el and more el rehersal. its almost everyday and im realli tired. im feeling weak n lethargic. *siigh*

so maybe tiings arent gonna brighten up 2 mii yet. and i realli thot iit was goin 2. but im sort of glad it din. ok, wad am i talking abt? haha. stress. i dunno wad 2 say, wad 2 do or how 2 react. im iin a fuckin mess.

thng changed my place again cos i was talkin 2 much with casey. so, i've switched places wiith janice. its doesnt realli matter whr she puts mii lar cos i'll still talk. :) im not bein defiiant or anytiing but, u noe mii. anw, she was teaching half way and den she stopped and said, "u noe thrs a couple iin tis class. they keep talkin and talkin and i cannot stand iit." den the whole class was lyk who? who? den she said, "they dun even noe tad im talkin abt them." the whole class was laffing by den lar. all getting excited. i mean, who wudnt lurve these stuff. haha. den she said it. "its casey and hannah lar. they keep talkin and talkin lyk a couple." den mii and casey kept sayin "wad sial!" haha. and we were laffing our asses off, the whole class. wah, casey turned red. he was soooo embarressed. haha. but seriously, we're juz good frenz.

and den juz niice, 5 mins later, ali walked past. wad sial. the moment he was visible, the whole class exploded. its lyk he was sum popstar or sumting. they were all screaming his name. i was so embarressed.

anw, i was forced 2 update by amrit. but he went offline 2 early 2 see tis. haha. end of story.

bye.
fuck! he's coming up! paniick!!!

2005-04-05T12:53:00.000+08:00

maybe, MAYBE, sumtiing good is finally gOin 2 happen 2 mii. yes, FINALLY. i guess im kiind of happy. haha. ok, i definiitely am. :)

had el until 6. trainiings are startiing 2 end realli late. nOreen was hilariious. she was lykk beiin so lame n cute, iit totally crackedd mii up. haha. left sch withh denver. was planning 2 go home and dO my hmwk cos thrs alott, but saw my neighbOur, thilaga and her 2 frenz, aliff andd abel. sO satt thr n did sum of myy maths hmwk. went hOme and took a bathh den went 2 the park agaiin. satt thr talked 2 abel. iit was realli fun lar. he toldd mii stuff abt jacob, abt his sec 4 liife (he's an ex gessian) n stuff. anw, leftt at 9.30. so here ii am. waitiing 4 desperate hOusewiives 2 start.

do u notice hOw we're slowly driifting apart? we're nOt as clOse as we usedd 2 be. even back when we were bestt frenz. b4 all tis happened. iits lyk, we piss eachh other off at the slightest tiings. do u tinkk we'll ever be as clOse as we were a year ago? ii hope we cann.

byee.

2005-04-03T13:12:00.000+08:00

my quiiz

yea, i made tad quiiz so take iif u're free take iit n see how well u noe mii. actually i did one b4 tis. but i realiised tad iits too ez. so i created a new one. haha. juz shows how i have nthin 2 do. so yea. and iif u take the quiz, plz leave ur REAL name behiind. yea.

and i juz wanted 2 say tad iits stoopid 4 one 2 giive up on lurve juz cos they got hurt b4. eventually, u will fall in lurve whether u want 2 or not. u juz cant stop urself. so maybe, u shld stop resistiing iit. its stoopid. doesnt the happi tyms tad u had wiith the person come back n make u smile every now n den? so juz let loose a little.

2005-04-01T12:46:00.000+08:00

i always feel annoyed by the end of the day. have i saiid tad b4? and juz waking up has made mii even more moody den b4. tmr. tmr i can finally sit in the park wiith my neighbours and their frenz and get complimented 4 no particular reason. my neighbours have been realli swiit lar. fuckin faizal n fuckin go 2 hell cos iif he fuckin pisses mii of again, he is so fuckin screwed! thr. he is an absolute bastard. i juz wanna thank iza, nadzii n devina. they've been reali great frenz. thr so many tiings goin on and iit feels as if im stuck in the middle of a turnado. *siigh* i've been feeling realli down lately. but wiith the company of my frenz iin skl, i always feel better. 2dae, went 2 the library wiith pok pok, nadzi, iza, jac n jovy. mii n pok pok were grabbing each others shoes n rolling all over the floor. haha. finally sum fat guy came over n lectured mii n pok pok. den tad stoopid pok pok, he took his red pen n said "fiire!" n threw iit at mii. and it poked a teeny weeny hole in my knee. haha. had fun lar. OMFG! utt iis sooo CUTE! *squeals* keke!!! aaahh! he is so freakin cute. okok. haha.

2005-03-30T12:48:00.000+08:00

by the tym i reach home, i always have no mOod 2 post an entry. wanna noe y? nah, dun wanna tell u. sumtyms, having the internet can totally suck. uh huh.

im 2 lazy 2 eleborate so i shall write everytiing in point form.
here goes.

- recess was farnie. seeing him tryin 2 'escape' har.har.
- iis he avoiding mii or am i bein paranoiid?
- had 2 waiit for 5 mins b4 the guy in griller took our orders
- by den, mii n iza were practically rolling on the floOr laffing
- met jac n nadzii after tad
- slacked ard in mac
- did maths n later, jian siong came
- walked wiith JS home.
- denver called, he wanted 2 drag mii 2 shop. no way.
- din go was feeling shitty. so, yea.
- sum ppl are juz 2 tired n have absolutely no mood 2 even lift a handd 2 wave at mii or even the least smile at mii. wtf!
- i am pissed!
- i am so farkin pissed!!!
- fark!! i cannot stand iit!!
- denver was realli swiit 2 come n tell mii abt iit.
- fark! i am so farkin pissed!
- ok. i am calm. i am calm
- fark!!! i am so pissed!
- *wiipes tears*

2005-03-28T12:01:00.000+08:00

fiind a guy who calls u beautiiful iinstead of hott.
wh0 calls u backk when u hangg up on him.
who w0uld stay awake juz 2 watchh u sleep.
waiit 4 the b0y who kisses ur foreheadd.
who wants 2 show u off to the w0rldd iin sweats.
who holdds ur hand iin fr0nt of his frenz.
who tiinks u're juz as pretty wiith0ut makeupp.
waiit 4 the one who iis c0nstantly remindiing u of h0w muchh he cares abt u and h0w lucky he iis 2 have u.
waiit 4 the 0ne who turnns 2 his frenz n says,
"..... tads her."

2005-03-28T08:10:00.000+08:00

juz read nadzii's blog. her entriies always leave deep impressions onn mii. they're so full of, hmmm, i dunno. sadness? hope? sinceriity? well, nadzii say she'll onlii tell when the tym is riite, so i shall not preassure her. anw, skipped church again. im sitting in front of the comp feeling realli bored. school tmr. damn. lazy 2 go. juz feel lyk stayin home n rotting. dun feel lyk seeing ppl. dun feel lyk studyin. dun feel lyk seeing ytad blardy thng. dun feel lyk doin anytiing. all i want is 2 sit down sumwhr wiith my frenz n laff til my stomach hurtts. i juz wanna smile at the computer screen lyk an idiiot when im chatting. haha. basically, im hating school now. haven done a single hmwk. and worst still, i din bring home any of my hmwk. die.

*sumtyms, ii wonder iif u wonderr abt mii ..

2005-03-27T14:02:00.000+08:00

went n watch robots wiith denver today. he had free tix. so, yea. it was a niice show. the movie was at 6.50pm. reached home at abt 9.40pm. syed's mum's bdae 2dae so he must have went out wiith his family. ali's online but i guess he's bz siince he hasnt said hii. nadzi, iza n xinni are not online. jeevan as well. and no amriit. i. am. friendless. my usual companions are not online. thank god mateen is talkin 2 mii or i'd go insaneeeee. nah, i could always read a book. or do my hmwk. wich btw, i dun noe wad hmwk i have. besides DNT tad is wich i am too lazy 2 do. anw, did i mention tad denver has got mii a bdae prezzie. well he n darren actually. aaw! i was so touched! haha. denver seems 2 be getting nicer n nicer. its scariing mii. haha. but its pretty cool hanging out wiith him. anw, he n darren got mii a paier of orange n green (yes, i noe the colours are weiird) fliip flops. have i saiid tad im touchhed? well, i am. realli. so yea. tad was how i spent my day. toOdles.

2005-03-26T14:45:00.000+08:00

miss congeniality is niice. i went n watched iit with jac, hui ling n xinni. had funn. :) so, im tis close 2 updatiing. cos im too lazy. haha. bye.

2005-03-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

omfg! my pri skl fren juz called mii 2 wish mii happi bdae! lyk wow! haha. its been ages since i've seen her n she still cann rmbr my bdae, phone number n all those stuff by heart. *shocked* she's sooo SWIIT! haha. juz came back. my leggs are achiing. cos of sum stoopid forfeit tad we had 2 do in malay class ytd. when i reached, got alot of wishes frm ppl. den had sum EQ talk. coach mag was pretty boring. but den, coach luke came iin. n he's realli great. he's so enthu n all. anw, he left after lyk 15 mins. den coach mag talked summore n den coach brandon came in. *faiints* he is so cute! haha. anw, siince we were all pretty bored n all, he entertained us by playin wiith us sum miind games. and it was lyk we sort of tacked teamed. cos he started out wiith tis game n i discovered the answer realli fast. haha. n the whole class was lyk so blurr. anw, he's a realli cool n nice guy. later, when iza n jac told him tad iit was my bdae, he wished mii n shoke my hand. haha. im goin gaga. later, we went 2 kopitiam 2 eat. the gang bought mii a choc bdae cake n i was realli touched. den juz b4 we left kopitiam, we met coach brandon n the rest of the coaches n he wished mii happi bdae n skaked my hand AGAIN! kekekeke!!! made our way 2 clementi stadium after tad. sports day. *siigh* iza did GREAT. im so proud of her. nadzii n xinni ran realli well too. 4 the 1st tym in my years in GESS, it din rain 4 a sport event. wow. my neighbours juz called mii. n they sang a happi bdae song 4 mii on the fone. aww. so swiit. haha. k. i'll stop here. have 2 go down n meet them. bye.

special thx:
iza, nadzii, syed, jac, xinni, jeevan, cynthia, ali, yi ling, denver, hui ling, serene, potato, pok pok, salwa, thilaga, joe n the many many more ppl who have made my day so much brighter. i lurve u guys. n gals. :)

2005-03-24T13:38:00.000+08:00

march is a horrible month. a very horrible month indeed. had tad CAST tinghy after skl followed by ELDDS. spent all the tym sitting down n learning how 2 pronounce our words nicely n clearly. den, the bandd started playin n jeremiah took us 2 the end of the 3rd floor, classroom blocks. sat in the middle of amrit, han rui n aldrin n got suaned as usual. after EL, went 2 tiong with denver, XX n farah. ate thr. i deleted tad crap tad i wrote. it was all juz abiit of a misunderstandiing. all thx 2 a blardy bastard name wilflirt au! oh well. haha. im kind of happi. n i dun now y. i shldnt be. *siigh*

2005-03-22T12:46:00.000+08:00

im in no mood 2 update. kim yong amaziingly apologised 2 mii. so touched! haha. nvr expected tad frm hiim. well, yea. im in a fucking fucked up mood now. fuckin thng. she fuck off n die in hell lar. bitch! argh! im so so pissed. i could kill a cow man. *siigh* wadever lar. today is juz not a good day. im feeling horrible. its been a long tym siince sumone said "i lurve u" 2 mii n realli meant it. *siigh* im a depressive bitch. fuck. sumone pls kill mii n end my misery. haha. ok, dun. thrs still many reasons 2 liive. besiides the fact tad mdm rosy totally humiliated mii in front of my whole class plus ali, sean n yi ling. *sObz* but i still lurve her. i swear, if i could have blushed, i would have blushed madly. tads how embarressed i was. god! i'll nvr be able 2 look at ali again. haha. ok, tads over reactiing, but yea. jeevan's also feeling totally fucked up. n its all thx 2 our lovely n wonderful mums. they go 2 church, repent, act holy but when they come backk home, all hell breaks loose. its as if they're not even christians. n my mum n dad are always forcing- yes forcing- mii 2 go 2 church. boo hoo. wad happened 2 the fruits of the spiriit? u noe, love, joy, peace. blahh blahh. so lyk i said, i have no mood. so shant bore u wiith my crap til u have no mood 2. bye.

2005-03-20T11:35:00.000+08:00

im suppose 2 hand in my maths fiile 2dae cos i promiised ms thng but, sum of my maths wksheets are wiith jac n i cant contact her. so .. yea.

woke up, took a bath den turned on the comp. so, i've been on the comp most of the day. at ard 3, i started 2 feel hungry, so, cooked myself lunch. im not a bad cook ok. i lazy 2 go down lar so no choice. jacob had gone 4 soccer mentioning tad he hated mii juz b4 he left. got sum perverted phonecall in the afternoon also. horrible! ek, i dun wanna tiink abt it so dun ask. called iza 2 tell her abt tad fone called n we talked abt guys. u noe, mainly THOSE guys. haha. dunno who? den nvm. :) went ard readiing ppl's blogs n praveen's (jeevan's bro) blog is super coOl.

syed miite not be coming online 4 awhile. so, *sigh*. thrs no one 2 talk 2 online now except ali n amrit. so pathetic riite? at least thrs the telefone. :) so, yea. amrit wants 2 read tis crap in abt 6 mins. ytd, i accidently typed his name as amit n he was so insulted. kept goin on abt mii insulting hiis manlyhood. oh puh-lease! as if he has one. whahaha. i noe he's gonna read tis tads y im typing tiis. keke.

my miind kips wonderiing back 2 ytd. does ur wander back 2? haha.

u noe, its amaziing wad camps n drama productions can do. 4 example, b4 drama niite, i hated charmaine's guts but after DN, i found out tad she's a totally nice n cool gal. now, with the SYF, im getting 2 noe devina, amrit, denver n alot of other ppl better. during the sec 3 camp, i got 2 noe sean better 2 n b4 the sec 3 camp, ali was juz someone i saw ard skl. but now, he's a fren. n whenever he comes online, he says hii. b4 the sec 3 camp, he was in my contact list n i in his but we hardly talked. so, u get wad im sayin riite? yea.

waitiing 4 my fone 2 riing. but i noe it wun riing yet cos SUM PPL are playin soccer at ngee an city or sumwhr thr. *sigh* bored out of my skinn. done most of my hmwk. left a few eng questions, did as much as i can 4 malay n done half of my maths questions.

ok. i shall stop here. bye!

*riing fone riing!!!* keke :)))

2005-03-19T12:37:00.000+08:00

went 2 GW with denver ytd cos he was bored n he has such great powers of persuasion .. so, ended up spendiing the day with him .. 2dae, met jeevan n syed in orchard n went n watch boogeyman .. lame show .. after tad, went 2 jeevan's hse .. slacked lyk hell, used his comp, watched lame n crappy stuff den watched jeevan n syed cycle n skate .. at ard 6, toOk a taxi back 2 city hall with syed den took teh MRT home .. tads all tad happened 2dae lor .. haha .. had one of the most best n relaxing tym in a few weeks .. FUCK! SHE juz called my mum!!!! tad fuckin thng juz called 2 ask 4 my mum! argh! die!!! mampus!!! aaahhh!!! how?!?!?! thank god my mum's not in .. die lar die! aiyo .. she wants my mum 2 call her back .. die lar die! nvm nvm .. *sigh* i have 2 go now .. my bro juz came back n he wants 2 use the comp .. so bye ..

p.s. i can still smell ur perfume .. :)

2005-03-17T10:56:00.000+08:00

so, camp was more fun den i thot it'd be .. we had fun in the camp but the training was also intensive n vigorous .. achiing feet is the result of all the standing tad we had 2 endure during the training sessions .. but it was all worth it .. jeremiah is a GREAT instructor .. on mon, i saw ali, syed, sean, mateen n kim yong .. aaww! iza, i got 2 see him n u din! haha .. after dinner, a few of us were sitting near the arena den yong liang, amrit n mohsen walked in behind mii n started makin racist comments .. n i tell u ar, aldrin, amrit, mohsen, hanrui n yong liang lurve 2 suan mii .. so i got pissed .. cos they had been suaning mii since the beginning of the day .. after 5 min, they came behind mii n apologised .. but i ignored them .. xue er told asked them y they were apologising 2 my back so, they moved in front of mii, bowed down n started apologising! it was hilarious! haha .. so i 4gave them lar .. :) slept at ard 12 .. the gals slpet in the music room while the guys slept in the 4g n 4h .. i slept next 2 jumana n she woke mii up in the middle of the nite juz 2 tell mii tad she was cold .. so, i lent her my sweater .. woke up in the morning n had PT (personal training) led by hong heng .. n i actually ran! haha .. yong liang, amrit n mohsen calls themselves the manly brothers .. riite .. *roll eyes* but it was kind of fun hanging ard with them once in a while .. they're nice lar .. had AP .. den rehersed again .. n we shared the hall with MLDDS .. SYED CAN DANCE! haha .. yes he can .. 2dae, we had rehersals b4 we left .. left skl at ard 5 .. feeling hungry now ..

anw, did anyone miss mii??? hehe .. i realli nid nadzi riite now but she's not online .. regarding tis matter, she's the onli one tad will understand n sympatise with mii .. haiz .. i come back, look through my frenz blogs n den *sigh* .. nadzi's blog realli hit mii hard in the face .. she noes exactly abt my situation .. yes, i noe im being dumb .. im bein so fuckin dumb! i hate myself! n during camp, yong liang said sumtiing 2 mii tad hit mii hard in the face .. i din noe wad 2 say .. but wad m i suppose 2 do??? it seems tad no matter wad happens, im all alone on tis one .. no one can help mii .. i can help jac, iza or whoever .. but no one can help mii .. tis sucks .. even jac's not in .. *sObz*

2005-03-14T11:48:00.000+08:00

wOke up at 10 2dae n left my hse at ard 12 .. went 2 jac's hse .. both her sisters were thr .. i wanted 2 play the mario game on the gameboy den i juz ask jasmine (the younger sis) wiich button is used 4 jumping n she tOok the gameboy frm mii n started teaching mii how 2 play .. so cute! she was saying, "den u jump on the mushroom hor." or "dun shoot the fiish cos mario hungry den he wan 2 eat the fiish." haha .. the innocence of young kiids .. she is juz so adorable!

left jac's hse ard 1 n we made our way 2 queensway shopping center 2 buy my contacts .. i bought a pair last thursday but i accidently tore the left contact .. *sigh* i thot tad i could juz buy one side of the contact but the lady said i had 2 buy a pair .. so, tinkin tad i din have enuff $$, me n jac went 2 ikea instead 2 get hotdogs .. n i was whining all the way thr .. i HATE specs n i tink tad i lOok gross in them .. ok, not tink, noe .. so, i was realli pissed with myself .. jac was realli nice 2 put up with all my whining .. when i reached ikea den onli did i realise tad i actually had enuff $$ .. but in the end, mii n jac decided 2 go 2 the library 1st .. so off we went .. borrowed boOks n den went back 2 qeensway .. got my contacts n left ..

reached home n was happily using the comp when my neighbours came up .. they were hungry so i made them egg n luncheon meat sandwiches .. poured 4 them a gazillion cups of coke n rose syrup while they were happily using the computer .. i noe i noe, i'd make such a GREAT hostess or a housewife rite? haha .. so my future husband sure lucky ..

having ELDDS camp tmr .. dreadiing it .. y? cos we're gonna be training 4 SYF most of the tym .. I HATE SYF!!! but i still lurve el .. will be gone tmr n i will be back on wed .. hopefully u all will miz mii tons .. haha .. have AP on tues .. hope i'll get 2 see ali, sean n syed .. cos they will be having their CCAs on one or two of the days tad im having camp ..

shit! i juz realise tad tad blady THNG mite call my parents while im at camp! fuck fuck fuck! all those iiotic teachers are goin ard calling parents juz cos we students din meet majority of our targets! MFs! nvm, most lykly it'll be my bro answering the fone not my parents cos they'll be at work! whahaha! stoopid thng! stoopid giam! stoopid rules! its all tad asshole, Giams fault! he loOks lyk a blady monkey 4 heaven's sake! he n his stoopid ideas! hope he burns in hell! kekeke ..

well, tads all .. so yea .. i shall stop here cos amrit is pesteriing mii 4 my blog add .. so i wanted 2 finish updating tis so he can read tis .. aint i swit? so amrit, be grateful! :)

bye ppl! see u on wed!

2005-03-13T07:01:00.000+08:00

woke up at ard 9.30 2dae .. 9.30! haha .. not bad eh? finished reading a book .. catching James by sarah mason .. its realli nice n hilarious .. i rate it 9 upon 10 .. yea .. sum idiot went n wrote crap on my blog .. the person dOes not nid 2 leave her name but its pretty obvious 2 mii .. she is definitely pathetic .. stooping down 2 such a low level by spamming my board n syed's board .. tad is definitely pathetic .. wad can i say? its expected frm her lar .. so, 2 tad [???] person .. i noe who u are .. syed doesnt lyk u .. he has made it obvious n he is definitely not leadiing u on in any way .. so dun go ard following him n cryin over the slightest tings he does 2 make u understand tad he so does not lyk u .. u called him 3 tym ytd n he said he was on the fone .. well, guess who he was talkin 2? *smirk* make a guess .. u shld juz give up on him .. i dun care abt u anymore .. u're not even considered a fren n i no longer care abt ur feelings or wadever u do .. juz leave mii alone n learn 2 move on n oso, quite pitying urself .. syed's my best fren .. wad did u expect? he tells mii more den u cud ever dream he'd tell u .. u're utterly digusting n pathetic man .. ok .. enuff of bitchin .. so ..... im bored now .. wad 2 do, wad 2 do, wad 2 do?

2005-03-12T16:04:00.000+08:00

guess who's back? back again? hannah's back .. tell a fren .. haha .. yay! finally im back .. yes .. my Internet">internet got cut off cos my mum din pay the bill .. anw, its paid oredi- FINALLY .. so yea .. im BACK! its pretty late now, so no one will read tis yet .. juz spent lyk 5 hours on the fone talkin n talkin n talkin .. i have no idea wad we talked abt .. we talked abt anytiing n everytiing .. kind of hungry .. din eat dinner .. juz found out tad sean's bdae is on may the 24th .. tads the same day as diyanah n fiq .. yup .. had el 2dae .. its been a realli stressful n tiring week with SYF coming soon .. cant wait 4 it 2 all be over .. feel so tired .. yea .. dun realli noe wadd 2 talk abt .. sean muz be siick .. kept showeriing mii with compliments- amaziingly .. having el camp on mon, tues n wed .. mite be able 2 see sean n ali on mon nite cos they're having scouts camp .. yea .. n finally the holidays are here .. thank God .. anw, i guess i shall stop here .. hope u ppl din miz mii 2 much .. haha .. yea .. so bye bye! :)

2005-02-23T11:21:00.000+08:00

i wanna scream, i wanna shOut, i wanna punch sumone, i wanna kiick sumone .. i wanna CRY! i feel so stoOpid .. nvm .. lets see if syed comes online later .. i guess i shld tell him sumtiing .. yea .. i mean, i am his fren (emphasis on the wOrd fren).. n yea .. its stoopid 2 tink tad we'd have been more den frenz .. so yea .. i'll talk 2 hiim IF he comes online .. if not den nvm ..

sumtyms, liife is totally sucky .. yes it is .. i mean how horrible can a bdae get? though i get irritated with him, i still fiind it realli saddening 2 see his bdae bein destroyed lyk tad .. haiz .. on his bdae! tad so sux! i was so sad when he told mii wad had happened .. n let mii remind u, i dun exactly lyk tiis guy .. i mite even get a little emotional when i see him up thr on thurs .. if they go on wiith it, tad is (n im prayin they wun) ..

nadzi .. the lame n lovely nadzi .. she .. aiyo! haha .. n sean .. stoopid, irritatin n swiit sean .. aaahh! it all started wiith nadzi n her matchmakiing .. saying we'd make a GREAT couple .. pollutiing my mind .. ish .. *shakes headd* but i wun listen 2 tad n i wun tiink abt it .. i dun wanna risk getting hurt again .. n i especially dun wanna risk getting my hopes high, tinking tad he actually lyks mii alot n blahh blahh blahh .. den later get my heart broken n my dreams destroyed ..

i juz realised tad i still have alot of anger n hatred vented up inside mii .. but how can i not hate wads goin on now? how can i not be mad?

2005-02-22T14:56:00.000+08:00

everyone is haviing prOblems .. family probs, relationshiip probs .. n i juz wanna take it all away frm them .. y do guys have 2 hurt gals? y do guys have 2 be so fickle minded? y dun guys lyk the gals with the great characters instead of the gals wiith the loOks? why cant parents be more understandiing? y cant they be more patient n thoughtful? y cant everyone be problem free?

nadzi n jac made mii realise tad maybe i wasnt imagining stuff n they helped mii beliff in myself .. sean .. sean made mii feel special .. haha .. though it wasnt exactly intentionaly i guess .. but he did .. n finally syed, after talkiing 2 him abt sum personal stuff, i felt much better .. thx guys 4 all the help .. love u all .. :)

2005-02-21T10:25:00.000+08:00

nthin 2 do .. nthin 2 wriite .. been sitting in front of the comp 4 the past 3 hours or so .. den one by one, my 2 neighbours came up .. juz now, eddie talked 2 mii .. super lame lar he .. he lives in the block opposite mine .. so i asked him wich floor he lives in .. he said 6 .. so i told hiim 2 go 2 his window n wave at mii .. den when i went 2 my window, he was already thr .. den we both wave our arms wildly .. haha .. tads the result of putting 2 lame ppl 2gether .. :) sean wrote mii a lame testi insultiing mii- as usual .. -_____-''' i guess he cant liive without insultiing mii .. painted my tOenails red .. blOod red .. looks pretty cool .. haha ..

2005-02-20T12:31:00.000+08:00

currently, i lurve the songgs mockingbird n lyk toy soldiers by eminem .. i've got a gazillion pimples popping out .. haiz .. slept at 10 ytd while readiing a boOk .. was 2 sleepy 2 eat dinner .. woke up at 10.15 tis morning when i heard the telephone riing .. it was xiao xuan n she wanted mii 2 come 2 skl 4 eldds practise .. said i'll try 2 be thr by 11 .. walked 2 the room n realised tad i had perfect vision .. tads when i realised tad i had slept with my contacts on .. thot of weariing it 2 skl without taking it out but decided against in cos its not goOd 2 wear ur contacts 2 long plus i had already worn it 4 the whole nite .. (thank god my eyes din swell up) reached skl b4 11, was realli shagged cos i was still tired, my body was achiing, i was pmsing n having cramps .. went home straight after tadd .. had no appetite so bought a packet of milo n i've been spending the whole day in frOnt of the comp .. felt hungry juz now so made maggi cos 1) im 2 lazy to go down n 2) cos i had no appetite so i dun realli feel lyk eatiing muchh .. tad always happens duriing 'tad tym' of the mth- i loose my appetite .. at ard 6, apek tried 2 prank mii .. lyk im tad stoopid .. haha .. i knew he was jOkin all along .. budden at one tym he seemed so serious, i got freaked out .. haha .. ended up calling syed n we talked abt life n stuff .. at least 2dae, i din end up getting frustrated with him 4 not talking much .. actually, it was quite a pleasure talkiing 2 syed .. we talked 4 roughly 45 mins b4 he had 2 go .. im currently having a sore throat .. the change in my voice is actually quite nice .. i was getting abit sick with my voice .. haha .. i sort of miz camp .. its 8.30 now n im all alone at home .. its pretty boriing .. thOugh its more peaceful cos jacob isnt ard .. rite .. i cant tink of anytiing more 2 type abt .. so yea .. bye ..

to nadzi n xinni:
if u are readiing tis, wud u plz update ur blogs!!! i wanna hear abt the camp frm ur point of view .. alrite? yay! haha .. :)

2005-02-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

WARNING: TIS IS A LONG ENTRY

alrite .. so i went 4 the sec 3 camp .. n as expceted, i had a ball .. it was really fun .. it wasnt lyk most of the camps i went 2 cos all the stuff we did were adventure stuff .. lets recall eh?

1st day:
sec 3d had the whole bus all 2 ourselves n we were making alot of noise .. when we reached the campsite n finally settled down in the hall, they gave us a quick briefing den, they assigned us our student leaders .. at first, our SLs werent sean n ali n i was tinkin tad it wud be kind of fun 2 have them as sec 3d's SLs .. n den my thoughts came true .. when sec 3e left with our supposedly SLs, i looked at sean n he grinned at mii evily .. tad bitch! haha .. i asked him y he was taking 3d instead of 3e n he said its cos he saw mii n wanted 2 take 3d .. lame .. *roll eyes* went 2 our huts 1st 2 put down our stuff n den met again in the hall 2 do orienteriing .. ended up being grouped with nadzi, colin n booncai .. we found 4 out of 6 clues .. we walked n sweated ALOT n mii, being lazy 2 carry a water bottle, got thirsty 2wards the end of the game .. tads when i saw sean n ali walking 2wards us with tis huge bottle of water .. n sean was swit enuff 2 share with mii his water .. aaaaww! but the switness was short lived .. after orientering, we had high elements 1 i tiink .. casey was brilliant .. he was realli good at everytiing .. i was the 1st gal in my cls 2 do it n it was pretty ok .. at 1st, when i got 2 the top, it was slightly jarring, i mean the height n all .. sean kept sayin tad i was gonna fall n stuff .. *hmph* when i reached the other end, sean n ali insisted tad i walk back .. n so i did .. when i reached the other end, the made mii walk back AGAIN .. so altogether, i walked along the "log" 4 tyms .. all thx 2 sean n ali who seemingly loves mii 2 bits n peices .. y? cos sean kips insulting mii n when i complain 2 ali, he juz smiles his colgate smile n says tad actually, sean is complimenting mii .. yea yea, n im queen elizabeth .. *roll eyes* did the broken brigde tiing as well n tried abit of belaying .. altogether, i bathed 3 tyms on tad day itself ..

2nd day:
as usual, sat next 2 fiq n his "sidekick", eugene, in the hall .. the food was alrite .. managed 2 take a bathe in the morning .. had basic n general elements followed by canoeing .. we were late 4 lyk 15 min n mrs yong made us do 25 pumping n sit ups .. but she walked away b4 we could finish, so we ended up doin very little n ran down 2 meet her again .. canoeing was fun .. i patnered nadzi n she was really relaxing n poor ali, he had panny as his patner .. sean deserved getting janice cos she kept nagging at him the whole tym abt badd coordination .. haha .. serve him rite .. sean kips insultiing mii .. he says all kindds of stoopid stuff n den he kips talking abt my boobs .. retarded .. den later he'll nudge mii n apologise .. den he'll make fun of mii again .. n all along, ali was standing thr n smiling .. haiz .. so sadd ..whenever i ask guys y they lyk 2 make fun of mii they say its cos my reaction is farni .. farni? rite .. -_____-''' anw, sean i n spent alot of tym insultiing each other .. i juz dun get him .. y insult mii? thr is iza, colin, nadzi, priscilla, serene .. but y mii? swit little mii *giggles* the onli person he makes fun of is MII!!!! haiz .. anw, mii, iza n jac were pmsing .. so we were all pissing each other off .. haha .. alrite, after canoeing, we swam in the water 4 awhile den, we had a shower .. wich was of no use cos we had high elements 2 after tadd .. tried everytiing n once again, casey was brilliant .. kept pesteriing sean 2 admit tad he lyks janice (the express one) but tad idiot ended up screaming at the top of his lunggs tis, "i dun lyk JANICE! i lyk HANNAH!" aaahh! so humiliatiing! n the whole csl turned ard n stared at us n went," oooohhhh." aaahhh! paiseh!!! had lunch n den we had zip line .. was the 2nd 2 go .. n it was FUN! iza went 1st after i forced her .. muahaha .. had fun cheering 4 ppl .. after the zip line, we had er .. absailing! yes! tad was a peice of cake .. lookin up frm below, everyone seemed 2 have super long leggs .. i din wanna go so soon, but ali came 2wards mii smiling n holding a harness n a helmet .. i was lyk, "u smiling at mii ar?" n he was lyk, "yea." so i rolled my eyes n tok the harness .. sean n ali ALWAYS come 2 mii 1st 2 ask mii 2 do sumtiing .. goodness .. *sigh* n while i was coming down, sean couldnt resist the urge 2 tell mii tad the ropes were goin 2 break under my weight n i was gonna fall SPLAT! on the ground .. i screamed at him 2 shut up .. didnt bother bathing cos the camp fire was next .. i was realli hyper by den .. we did our cheer, wich totally sucked, cos half way through, we screwed up on the words n we ended up screaming .. but i dun tiink anyone noticed cos it was pretty convincing! haha .. went n draw lots after tad n unlucky mii, picked the number one .. argh! n we din prepare an item n 5 mins b4 our item, serene gave mii an idea .. 4 further details, plz refer 2 iza's blog .. :) after the cheer, sean n i actually managed 2 talk normally without insultiing each other n we actually complimented each other .. haha .. i was still super hyper so mii, nadzi, di, sean n ali did alot of crazy stuff .. when kin onn asked 4 a maroon totally 90 shoe, ali threw his shoes 2 the front n sean passed it 2 mii n he told mii 2 run, so i ran n kin onn was lyk, "tad was pretty fast." duh! im a great runner ok .. hehe .. after tad, wanted 2 go over 2 the boys bunk but yong n kwan threatened spot checks so,yea .. wasnt able 2 do tadd .. bathed n den xinni n di came over .. it was alredi cramped in our hut n they wanted 2 slp thr .. it ended up, mii n diyanah grabbed our sleeping baggs n went back 2 di's hut 2 slp ... n boy, did i slp ..

3rd day:
woke up at 6.05 .. late! was suppose 2 meet at 6.15 4 breakfast duty .. i managed 2 drag iza n di n we were on tym .. the rest who were late got scolded .. later, thng gathered 3c n d n made us do 30 pumping .. 30! argh!!! i detest pumpiing .. had rock climbing after tadd .. din go up cos i was 2 chicken though sean kept egging mii 2 go .. cheered 4 the 3b ppl cos they were doin high elements 1 .. later, sean n ali came n sat next 2 mii n we talked 4 awhile b4 sean started raining insults on mii .. i walked away .. ended the camp cleaning toilets .. fuck man .. i mean, arent gals suppose 2 be the cleaner gender .. but no! they are so not! u shld have seen the toilet man! argh! everyone was so grossed out .. 4 futher gory details, come ask mii .. the teachers muz realli hate us 2 make us clean toilets .. went backk 2 skl .. sat in cls 4 awhile .. b4 leaving, asked syed 4 a hug .. but he kept sayin no nid .. nvm nvm .. u good lar syed .. went 2 tiong .. sat thr 4 abt 2 hours ..

juz wanna let everyone noe tad sean, the shoulder spasm boy, is an irritant .. :) n ali has such white teeth! during the whole camp, i only hated u 2 tyms 4 lykin her ..

if u guys readiing tis now, plz tagg my board 2 tell mii tad u're read tis extremely looong entry .. n congrats 2 .. haha .. hope it wasnt boring .. :)

2005-02-16T11:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday's SS test was tOtally cool .. ms nim came in during the 2nd half of the test 2 relief mdm rOsy .. n when she came in she saidd, "try, try ur best not 2 cheat." den we all asked her if we could cheat n she said juz try our best .. but in the endd, we ended up cheatiing n during the last 15 mins, we had a discussion of the answers .. hehe .. ms nim so rox man!!! anw, back 2 the present, i realise tad i lyk 2 read blogs whr ppl use proper english .. cos sumhow, it makes the the entries more interestiing n understandable .. yea .. so now, i shall move on 2 blood boiling issues .. sumtyms i dunno wads her freakin prob .. at least im proud 2 say tad im the matured one here .. [bhb:)] i mean she can give snide remarks n comments .. but if she dare say it in malay cls or when she's alone den say lar .. but, she only does it when she's in a grp .. how pathetic is tad? very .. as 4 mii .. i wun stoop down 2 such a low level .. i juz act as if she's sumone i dunno .. i dun even bother lookin at her .. n he .. he is another one .. im not going 2 say anytiing abt him .. becos its mean n if i do say anytiing, i noe its gonna be offending .. im juz waiting 4 him 2 come 2 mii .. den we'll have a "little" chat .. i hate u 4 lyking diyanah .. i dun realli hate u .. i juz hate wad u're doing .. but does wad i say realli matter? its not as if it'll change tiings .. im juz fed up n frustrated .. u're so full of lies .. tell mii, doesnt it ever make u tired? lyin n lyin .. especially lyin 2 mii .. cos i noe tad u noe, tad i will find out wads goin on eventually .. r u tired now? r u realli tired? cos if u're tired, y not juz sit down n tell mii everyting now huh? no more lies .. juz tell mii everytiing ..

2005-02-14T11:55:00.000+08:00

went 2 church .. sat in frOnt of lanz, joshua n gang .. they were really noisy .. but it was fun .. lanz n joshua look super cute!! aaahh! i miz goin out with ben, cheryl, joel, lanz n josh .. the first tym i went 2 escape was with them .. the first tym i went bowling was also with them .. n i knew lanz since i K2 n joshua since pri 1 .. cheryl n jOel when i was in sec 1 n ben tan when i was in pri 4, i tiink .. they were my childhood frenz .. n of course .. thr are my neighbours .. prema, philip n thilaga .. i've known them since i was in pri 3 .. me, philip, prema n jacob used 2 play at the playground downstairs everyday n i used 2 wear all these spagetti tops n mini skirts .. when i fell down frm rollerbladiing, my skirt wud fly up .. despite the hot n humid weather, i always left my hair down -it was pretty long back den .. i rmbr when thr was tis tym when prema "abandoned" mii 2 go with tis grp of indian guyys .. i was realli pissed n i called her a bitch .. we din talk 4 a few days n we ended up being frenz again after a few tears were shed .. :) i rmbr tis guy, kani raja .. i din lyk him back den so i called him a cow (cOs he loOked ly one) .. i also called him pandi raja, wiich means pigg raja .. haha .. but now tad we've all matured, i got 2 noe him better n found out tad he's a realli swit guy .. he's currently goin on with prema .. n they look so cute 2gether! haha .. when i heard tad raja wud be "leaving" 4 awhile, i was sad .. he is one of the switest guys i noe .. haiz .. i guess im gonna miz him in a way .. u may be tiinkin "y is hannah all these stuff abt her childhoOd?" well, its cos 2dae is prema's bdae n it reminded mii of my childhood ..

tmr is Vday .. wad a horrible day .. i tiink it was created 2 remind ppl abt how lonely they are .. how nicee, not .. as u may have guessed, i m dateless .. yes, unbelievable(hehe) but true .. oh well, at least i have eldds 2 occupy my miind tmr .. :)

*n if i had wiings i wud fly
cos all tad i nid u are
n if the world caved in ard mii
2 u i'd still hOld on
cos u're all tad i beliff
n the one tadd created mii
JESUS, becOs of u
IM FREE!

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2005-02-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

went 2 church .. sat in frOnt of lanz, hoshua n gang .. they were really noisy .. but it was fun .. lanz n joshua look super cute!! aaahh! i miz goin out with ben, cheryl, joel, lanz n josh .. the first tym i went 2 escape was with them .. the first tym i went bowling was also with them .. n i knew lanz since i K2 n joshua since pri 1 .. cheryl n jOel when i was in sec 1 n ben tan when i was in pri 4 i tiink .. they were my childhood frenz .. n of course .. thr are my neighbours .. prema n thilaga .. i've known them since i was in pri 3 .. n me, philip, prema n jacob used 2 play at the playground downstairs everyday .. n i used 2 wear all these spagetti tops n mini skirts .. n when i fell down frm rollerbladiing, my skirt wud lfy up .. n despite the hot n humid weather, i always left my hair down .. n it was pretty long back den ..

2005-02-13T12:09:00.000+08:00

6 simple facts:

Don't store things in your heart, because it's painful and devastating when you release it.
Don't be a bitter person, because this springs from having a resentful spirit.
Don't discount people's emotions or feelings just because they don't show it to you.
Don't reveal too much of the darker side of yourself because it might overwhelm others.
Don't raise your voice at other people because they do not deserve to be treated that way.
And lastly, don't expect too much of people because you're probably bound to get disappointed.

Love has to be demonstrated; it's not about the thought that counts, because it doesn't and it proves nothing.

went out with jac 2dae .. went 2 more den words .. its a shop, btw .. got a new wallet .. the wallet is pretty cool .. got a bunch of stuff 4 camp toO .. i still dun feel 2 good .. the sadness is still lingering thr waiting 2 engulf mii .. but i refuse 2 be sad .. im not gonna waste my tym being sad .. no way .. im gonna let go n move on .. n it seems 2 be doing the trick .. i nvr thot it'd be tis ez .. n i doubt it'll REMAIN tis ez .. i'll have 2 prepare myself 2 see u on monday .. i can do tiis .. im not angry with u, so i shall juz treat you normally .. i decided 2 act n maturely n not be childish .. i decided tad i'm not gonna give u the satisfaction of seeing mii get hurt anymore ..

anw, back 2 wad i did 2dae .. jac was realli lame .. she was lyk laffing so many tyms 4 no apparent reason .. n now, im sitting in front of the comp feeling bored n hungry .. juz changed my taggie 2 a doodle board n i also changed the skin abit ..

from now on, my role model is joey .. why joey?
because:
- he speaks GREAT english (u shld read his blogg .. its in my liinks)
- he's a talented singer
- he's the worship leader of R-AGE
- he plays the guitar
- he's a good soccer player
- he's the captain of team R-AGE
- he loves GOD
- u can see GOD working through him
- he's a GREAT mc
- he's got great leadership qualities
- he's considerate n kind
- people instantly lyk him
- he's a people person

dun mistake mii n tink tad i have a crush on him .. cos i dun .. yea .. i tiink tis entry is long enuff oredi .. so toOdles ..

2005-02-12T12:30:00.000+08:00

Through It All
by Hillsong United

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You

Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

tis sOng realli touches my heart n though everytiing in life seems sucky now, i noe tad GOD will ALWAYS be thr 4 mii no matter wadd .. no matter how bad or sinful i've been .. n i realli nid him in my life rite now .. cos im goin 2 through one of my hardest stage in life so far n my life is in a HUGE mess .. n i seriously mean HUGE .. i realli nid sumone 2 shower mii with love .. n i noe GOD will always love mii n shower mii with love .. thank u JESUS .. i love u .. :)

i wanna thank amrit 4 trying 2 inject sum life in2 mii also .. its great 2 have frenz who dun wanna see u upset .. especially when the sacrifice their eyes juz 2 see u smile .. haha .. n i wanna say thx also iza n nadzi 4 bein the greatest frenz a gal could ever want .. being a true fren 2 mii n totally understanding mii, listening 2 mii constantly whine n being a great pillar of support ..

*emOtionally draiined__

2005-02-12T10:30:00.000+08:00

i noe everytiing .. im juz waiting 4 u 2 come find mii, sit mii down n explain everyting 2 mii .. tell mii wad u have kept in ur heart .. tell mii wad u nvr told mii .. im curious .. n im hurt .. but im ok .. seriously .. i juz nvr expected it 2 turn out tis way .. im not angry .. im 2 tired 2 feel angry .. its not as if tis is the 1st tym .. but tis is the final straw .. i refuse 2 let my heart be broken again .. i refuse 2 cry .. but i nvr believed a word u said .. i nvr trusted u .. im not as gullible as u tiink .. all the lies juz din match up .. thr were sum missing peices .. im siick of all these lies .. would everyone PLEASE stop lying 2 mii? its seriously, of no use .. no kidding .. cos in the end, i will find out everytiing .. so y waste both my tym n urs?

Its been 5 months, since you went away
Left without a word, nothing to say (nothing to say)
When I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, oh no, so I asked god

God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel to wipe these tears from my eyes

And I know it might sound crazy,
But after all that I still loved you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there's something that I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That they cant have my love no mo
My heart cant take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries, so god

God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
Cause all I do is cry (all I do is cry)
God send me an angel to wipe these tears from my eyes
(send me an angel)

Now you had me on my knees
Begging god please to
Send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
And you made me feel like I could not breathe
When I, all I wanted to do was feel your touch
And to give you all of my love (give you all of my love)
But you took my love for granted
Want my luvin now but you cant have it, oh god

God send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
Cause all I do is cry ( is cry)
God send me an angel to wipe these tears from my eyes

Ohh ohh god send me, god send me an angel
An angel
Wipe the tears from my eyes
Send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel, god send me an angel
From being in love
Send me an angel
Oh god
Send me an angel

-amanda perez- angel

*it was all a bunch of liies__

2005-02-10T11:26:00.000+08:00

I sit alone
In a dark theater watching the people go by
Hand in hand, everybody but me

I stay behind
Watching the credits roll by
Roll Roll roll right by me

I know I won't cry
Because there is somebody somebody somebody waiting for me
Out in the rain
Won't cry, not tonight
'Cause there is somebody waiting for me

Oh, yeah won't cry

I take a walk
The streets are busy tonight
And I am searching for you
Waiting to brush your shoulder

And I'm alone
I watch the faces roll by
Roll Roll Roll right by me

But I know I won't cry
'Cause there is somebody somebody somebody waiting for me
Out in the rain
Won't cry, not tonight
'Cause there is somebody waiting for me

How many words will go unspoken oh
Til I hear you knocking upon my door
I just got this magic spell unbroken
But tonight I know I won't cry no more

I lie awake
I left the porch light on
I hope it helps you to find your way

Outside I hear the thunder roll by
Roll Roll roll right by me
But I know I won't cry

'Cause there is somebody somebody somebody waiting for me
Out in the rain
I'm not gonna cry tonight
No, 'cause there is somebody waiting for me
Not gonna cry tonight
Not gonna no, no no no
Oh, yeah
No, not gonna cry, not tonight
'Cause there is somebody waiting for me

I stay behind
Watching the credits roll by
Roll Roll roll right by me

bOnnie mckee- sOmebody

*sumtyms, its amazingg hwo much songgs can relate so much 2 ur life .. :)

2005-02-09T14:07:00.000+08:00

nooo! argh! i juz typed out sum stuff n i accidently hit the esc button n *poOf!* its gone .. haiz .. anw, i was saying tad the chinese holiday is finally of sum use 2 mii .. can wake up when i wan 4 the next 2 days .. rejoice! been givin a ton of advice 2 iza these past few weeks .. how can i give her advice when i cant even follow my own advice when it comes 2 matters on lurve? tad is if i have any matters on lurve .. n its so unfair tad she has ppl 2 help her trOugh tis n i din have .. oh well .. im sort of stuckk in the middle of nadzi n iza .. as in i understandd how iza feels n i oso noe how nadzii feels .. its kind of weird .. maybe i have tis sensitivity tingy cos i have been surrounded with so many frenz who have gone through relationships n come 2 mii 2 tell me abt it or 2 seek advice .. sumtyms, i wish tad i was obliviOus 2 wad other ppl do .. tad im slow n not understand wads goin on with my frenz love lives .. ok .. wadever im typing sounds confusing .. haha .. i dun realli noe how 2 express wad im feeling in wordds u see .. so juz tahan with me lar .. im so tired now .. wasnt planning 2 update my blog .. but im so bored! buddha seems 2 have changed .. or isit juz tad he lurves 2 see mii get pissed? he kips insulting mii .. horrible .. so sarcastic .. he wasnt lyk tad 2 mii b4 n its freakin mii out .. seriOusly .. wads tis tingg with guys tryin 2 get mii irritated juz 2 see the way i'll react? its freaky ok .. aldrin, amrit, buddha n a few more .. crazy ppl .. n i realise tad the only tym buddha realli talkks muchh on the fone is when he's enjoying himself insulting mii .. maybe his chicken pox has screwed up his brain .. yea .. tad shld be the reason ... i hope .. anw, i'll take the insults as longg as he's enjoying himself .. *roll eyes* my mum hasnt been cooking .. n since all the chinese ppl went home early 4 the chinese new year tingy, most of the shops were closed .. n i am starvingg! argh! im so hungry now ok .. n my parents wun let mii go 2 shop at tis tym of the nite .. so its juz mii, a couple of eggs n maggi mee .. wow! dunno wad crap 2 write anymore so yea .. bye ..

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